Hello all you X smokers,
I guess I finally hit the big 100 days and I am looking forward to 1 million more. I have been through a lot in the past 100 days. Some good but most not so good. Its all ok though, it was all worth it. I learned so much about myself and the way I was living my life. I learned that addictions can be controlled and I also learned that an addiction can leave you powerless if you let it. Wanna know something people, life is a precious gift, a gift worth fighting for and a gift worth living. The addiction is what destroys that precious gift. ( ok, I soften up a bit, I didn�t say kill, lol) There is so much to life that I was no longer going to let this addiction ruin my life and all who I love.
Why are so many of us addicted? The answer is so simple and if you think about it, it makes all the sense in the world. That is, we look for something to avoid our pain. Nicotine does just that. When we change our mood, with diversions, we shut down and shut out our pain and we do nothing to soulve the problem causing it. On my 75th day of my quit I was accused of something that would never stand in the medical field. When my accusers left my office, I was pissed. I jumped up and headed out to the smoking hut behind the hospital. The urge was so intense, the worst I have had since my quit started. As I walked down the hall, I stopped and turned around and I headed back to my accusers. While walking, I told myself that no matter what happens in the minutes to come, I will not let my addiction stand in the way of my problem. I smiled and kept walking. Needless to say, I did what I had to do, I delt with these people and I am still smoke free because of it. I suppose if I had sucked down that smoke, I would have felt better but not really cuz its all in my head and I kept telling myself that. The solution: well, for me it was to stay with that problem and deal with it. Next I talked about it to others and that really helped me begin to heal.
Life is not meant to be easy. It is difficult and it sometimes hurts. By our personal struggles we build and we define our character. Did anyone ever accomplish something that you thought you never wouild accomplish? When you finally got over all the humps and the hills, you felt like you were on top o