Hi, I'm new to this forum.
About two years ago, I went through a CBT program (and it was very effective). As a result of the group, and through using an SSRI (Celexa), I've lived as productive/normal a life as I ever have. One of the drawbacks, however, was that I ended up with "superman" complex. While I always feared the return of intense anxiety/panic, I didn't really practice my breathing, muscle relaxation, etc...and I started piling work on top of work (I teach at a college)...started two separate businesses, etc. I often feared the return of panic...and had periods of heightened anxiety, but they generally only lasted for a day or two. I knew that it was anxiety, and was usually able to "breathe it away" or wait it out.
During the winter, together with my father-in-law, I built a new house. My wife, three kids, and I lived with them for about six months. It was an unnerving time...and my routines were all shot. In March, we finally moved into our house (though we still have quite a few small projects to complete).
About a week ago, while struggling with a garage door that didn't work, I experienced some intense anxiety. I hadn't felt that bad in probably two years. I didn't believe any of my "positive self-talk" and spent the evening fearful and anxious. I had a decent nights sleep...but the anxiety lasted into the next day. It eventually abated, and I had an ok week. On Thursday, my wife was quite upset at me over a change of plans in our weekend, and that was enough to prompt a weekend of "rolling anxiety" (the type where it comes in stages - at times I feel absolutely fine, and then at other times, I feel completely anxious/fearful, finding little relief in any coping strategy). I've tried to make some changes in my schedule, but it's difficult to just turn things off - I have committed to so many obligations that I almost feel trapped.
I'm looking forward to working through this material again...and would love to hear comments (particularly from others who have "been ok" and then reverted).
