Well I guess I'll start at the beginning. I smoked as a kid started at about 9 years old and by the time I had a steady income (paperboy :) I always had a pack with me. By the time I was 18 years old I was smoking 2 packs a day my health was heading south and I was completely disgusted with the habit and quit cold turkey with basically just the help of chewing gum ... or so I thought ... it turned out I didn't quit ... I just paused.
The pause lasted for 14 years.
Like an idiot, out with some friends at a bar over a holiday weekend 11 years ago, I took ONE drag. Just ONE drag I thought ... hell ... ONE drag couldn't kill me. That ONE drag got me stoned ... It was awesome!! The rush through my body after not having a drag for 14 years ... Intense!! And of course I had it totally under control ... I mean it was at least 2 weeks before I was out with friends again and took another drag ... hell it was probably 2 months before I was out with friends smoking the whole cigarette ... Ohh but I still had it under control ... yeah right. Within one year I was back at 2 packs a day.
Two packs a day for the last decade. I'm now 44 years old. I quit smoking September 2nd, 2006. Cold turkey once again... well maybe with the help of sunflower seeds :) I've just past the 4 month mark and believe I've jumped over a milestone ... yesterday for the first time since I've quit I don't believe I thought about smoking all day.
If I get a craving I chant to myself "ONE drag = two packs a day". The first week was tough ... the second even tougher ... hell ... the first two months were pretty tough!! I finally think that I'm breaking the habit at the cerebral level ... reprogramming the mind is the true key. I'm sure I've been over the nicotine addiction for a couple of months and that now my cravings are psychological.
I believe I was able to quit this time because like when I was 18 once again I had become [b]Totally Disgusted[/b] with smoking and being a smoker. I did increase the amount I smoked in the last few months before I quit to progress the disgust ... then picked a day. I chose Saturday September 2nd, 2006 ... labor day weekend ... so that I would have three days under my belt before having to return to work.