thanks Phil,
It is good to know that there are others who went through this. It seems to be a subject that has not been discussed much here on scc. But, you and Ladybugg both made me feel better about what I was going through. Believe me, I knew that i was addicted to the NRT and I had to stop using it
And thanks Katy. My panic was mental. This journey towards freedom has been a LONG time coming for me. I have been on this site for over a year; been to the beach (100 day) and back twice; restarted my meter 3 times (I smoked a few cigs more than three times, just did not restart my meter EVERY time). This has been an incredible struggle for me. But, I did not give up. I am in the final stages of this quit and I have no intention of falling back into the serial quitter trap...the extended longings, the thoughts of smoking day and night. Along with the thoughts come the mental exhaustion; the fear that you will feel this way for the rest of your life; the self condemnation because others seem to have made it to freedom and you can not get there. You start to question yourself, "Am I weaker or just not as committed?" But, with the help of this site, being able to write my thoughts and receive answers from real people; I now believe that I can make it to freedom. I really can get smoking and nicotine addiction out of my life forever AND feel normal again. At one point during this quit I was off of NRT (all nicotine) for over a month. I was just beginning to feel the freedom..not totally, but enough that some of the joy had returned to my life, SOME normalness. I would have periods where I did not think about smoking for a few hours at a time. NOW,I have reached bottom, I have exhausted myself. I can not and will not go back to that slavery. I am crying right now. Forgive me if I seem overly dramatic. I am so thankful that I am smoke free.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/20/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 130
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,521
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $487.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 17 [B]Hrs:[/B] 17 [B]Mins:[/B] 47 [B]Seconds:[/B] 57
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Quit Meter
$91,606.00
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 6059
Hours: 15
Minutes: 0
Seconds: 27
Life Gained
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Quit Meter
45803
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
458,030
Cigarettes Not Smoked
