I've got 207 days. Strange day to pick for a stats parade post. I don't come around here much anymore, but have been thinking about you all just lately, so i came by to see how you were doing, and to let you know that i'm still hanging tough.
This was extremely difficult for me. I was nearly a 4 pack a day smoker, and I just gave them up one day. I have told my husband more than once "This is the dumbest d**ned thing i've EVER done!" as I went through something else.
I told hubby when I quit that I would probably try to force him to encourage me to smoke by behaving extra badly. LOL.. You know, he went through all of the things that I could toss his way and never once caved. I begged him one time, while crying my eyes out and telling him how much I was suffering to just PLEASE go buy me some ciggarrettes. I wouldn't go buy them myself - guess I didn't really want them as much as I thought, or wanted it to be his failure not mine - I dunno, but he didn't do it.
I'm an insulin dependant diabetic, and I guess that the success rate for us is pretty low. I can see why - my blood sugar went up sky high, and I was taking much more insulin and my doctor even added a pill to go with it. When your blood sugar is unstable, every single system in your body is unstable, including your emotions and thought patterns - so maybe that gives a little insight into Misty, and few other folks around here.
I'm proud of myself. I know that everyone here is proud of themselves and we all should be and i'm not really anouncing great news. LOL... But, I am just really proud of myself. I've never made it longer than 3 months before, and here I am on my to 7 months.
I've gained 35 pounds. 35 pounds - holy crap. LOL!! I've also gained 18 days of my life, the ability to breath, and a sense of smell that makes me wish I didn't have a cat. My baby will never even remember his mom as a smoker.
I'm having good days now. Really... good days. There was a time that I thought i'd never ever feel normal again. My blood sugar is beginning to drop, and my insulin usage is dropping. I haven't gained anymore weight - haven't lost any but, haven't gained either in like... 2 weeks. LOL!
In the begining, this place was my entire stability. I came her