Sammi,
I enjoyed your post, as it really hits the nail on the head on the junkie thinking. Following is a post from my 5th day on those thoughts! I called them cig icons floating through my head! Identifying them as such, or as junkie thinking helped me get a handle on them!
Hello Everyone,
Yesterday was a more stressful day for me. I was a little wired all day, and couldn't get focused. I was visiting with a friend for about 30 minutes. During that time, I bet the little icon or thumbnail of an image of a cig floated through my brain at least 10 times. The thought was... I'll have a cig after this. Then I chased down and tackled the thought with... I no longer smoke. Just for fun, I'm going to really observe and keep track of how many times that happens to me today--the cig icon floating in my head -- and make a game out of it. If I play with it, maybe it won't tick me off! In fact, I'm thinking of taking paper with me, and counting how many times and when it happens. I think I can better deal with it. I've learned from all of you, that the process isn't about denying ourselves the awful nic, it's about replacing it with good things that are good for us. I'm finally "getting" it more and more about how "not smoking" changes us. I am usually pretty observant, but never realized how much of a coping mechanism it is. I'm understanding better what Luna and Healer talk about when they say becoming a non-smoker is a changing of oneself. I'm ready to sit back and learn more and more about myself a day at a time. Thanks everyone!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/31/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 14
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 145
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $27.02
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 16 [B]Mins:[/B] 22 [B]Seconds:[/B] 45
