HI T and CONGRATS on a job well done!! Everyone's quit is different but at the same time, we are traveling down that same road.
No, you are not crazy. We have learned to hide behind the cigs and we have rewarded or dealt w/ issues by smoking. Evenings are stressful! You are the mom, the cook, the school tutor, the wife, etc. And that in itself is stressful!! So many things to do before we finally hit the pillow at night!! Sit down at dinner, and tell your family they will need to help out and support you during this time. Buy frozen dinners for a month, have the husband cook dinner or pick something up on the way home, have the kids throw in a load of clothes, load the dishwasher, etc. Delegate chores to the family. And even if they do not do it right, take a deep breath and say to yourself they made it a little bit easier for you.
What you are feeling is normal. Your innerself is terrified of this step!! It is looking at it as being an unnatural state of mind. All we have ever known is smoking and the body thinks it is unnatural not to smoke!! This is what we call the junkie talking---trying to persuade you back to the smokes. You are actually fighting with yourself and yes, I have done the exact same thing!!
Say to yourself you are not a smoker. Repeat this *all* the time so it becomes a habit. You want to convince your brain what you are doing is completely normal!!
You may want to talk to your doc to help you with this journey. There are medicines to help cope with these feelings. I think it was Josie who has said that smoking has often masked the true feelings of how we have felt all along. Depression, anger, anxiety, etc. We do go thru a mourning period, we do have anger, etc.
Most of all, do as Healer has told so many people. Be gentle with yourself. This is a very difficult time for you. Do whatever it takes to remain smoke free forever. Love your quit, read over your reasons, pamper yourself each minute, and if you have to cry, then CRY!!! Let it all out!! Grab your pillow and CRY!!! Want to shout and scream?? Go to the bathroom and look in the mirror!! Yell at the junkie and smile at the new YOU!! Praise the NEW YOU!!! Tell yourself how proud you are of YOU!!! HUG yourself!! LOVE YOURSELF!!
YOU DESERVE to be FREE from the nicode
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Days: 474
Hours: 10
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Seconds: 45
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