Thank you all for your support. It really means a lot to me. I am at day 3 today, its 10.01am now but when i finish at 5pm then that will be my 72 hours, 3 days - nicotine has left my body. YAY
Quit I think what happened this time, was that I smoked half a cigarette which unknown to me was at the bottom of my bag (probably chipped from when I had got on the plane the year before, as I hadnt used that particular bag not since the year previously - even the last years airline tickets were in the bag)
How gross is that? Half a cigarette that had lain around in a handbag for over a year. Yet i smoked it, and I smoked it with a vengance. Only thing was, first thing next morning, I thought - ah I need to get some more. Well, I did go to the shop, bought them and sat with them in my hands with the wrapper on. I knew that i shouldnt go further - take them back to the shop sell them, whatever (I was in North Cyprus, and flying from South, they search you, so you cant even take back one packet of cigarettes from North to South).. anyway once i had smoked one, that was it really - i thought the same as you...
Yep I am on holiday, freedom, there isnt anyone going to tell me what to do. To be honest it was an awful holiday i was staying at his parents, and they werent exactly welcoming - I felt pretty isolated. Then i got the cigarettes out... and I suddenly did not feel isolated anymore. Of course it was probably the nicodemon trick - and i fell for it hook line and sinker.
I told myself stupid things, like ya know - as soon as we land back in England I wont smoke anymore.. yeah right! Each morning (because i would smoke everything that i had before work) on my way to work, i debated should i buy another packet... even when I didnt buy any, the new girl persuaded me to go out for a smoke with her.
It was 7 weeks and 3 days before i finally quit again (just looked that up in my diary). So much for just smoking whilst on holiday..
Its so hard to quit - i smoked as much as i always had. I had no control over it at all. I dont know what makes us so different. But I guess it is like some people can be casual smokers (my boyfriend can) and others cant (i cant).. Some smoke 60 a day some smoke 5... If I smoke, I could smoke a couple of packets a day.. the