Hi everyone;
Bopped in to take a quick peek at what's going on & just saw this thread. Sillyme - how sweet of you to escort me to the cruise ship! I really do appreciate it.
Know what my reward is? Nothing! Yes, I got to do nothing this weekend. No cooking, no laundry, no cleaning, no errands, no chores. Just fun - I've watched 2 movies that I've been wanting to see but put off for weeks, I got started on a new book on spirituality that I've been meaning to get into (but of course one thing or another came first), I sat outside last night & watched a full moon come out over the Catalina mountain range, and to top it off my husband took me out for breakfast this morning & surprised me by inviting 3 other couples. So I just got back from a 3-1/2 hour breakfast (we were having so much fun talking & laughing that we stayed all morning!).
And the absolute best part was that I've barely thought of smoking this weekend! In fact (w/tears in eyes) I just realized that I never even thought of smoking AT ALL, all the time I was at breakfast this morning! I was just having so much fun - - I was able to live right in the moment & just enjoy . . . just enjoy having fun.
I didn't have to sit down wind from everyone, or find out if anyone was so opposed to smoking that I would have to excuse myself & go outside to find a private place to get my smoke (fix), or suffer through craving & eventually cut the event short so I could go chain smoke for 30 minutes to get rid of the cravings, yada, yada.
I am so grateful to be smoke-free today. A major thank you to the SSC board & all the members. Windy, Danielle, Sparky, Gonna, NMC, Deli, Grandma (by the way, I used to live in Roseville!) and Grace - thank you for posting - - you have both delighted & reminded me to grateful for life without nicotine!
Mr Ed - (will try not to get mushy) - you are the one who taught me that I didn't have to suffer to quit smoking (even doing it as I did - cold turkey). You taught me that I didn't have to crave, I didn't have to go off the deep end, I didn't have to be obsessed, I didn't have to live life as if I lost something or with a negative attitude. How does one express appreciation for all of that? Let me just say Mr Ed, there is at least one person in life (albeit virtually)