Having strange, shocking and disturbing thoughts is definately part of my disorder also...but what I have found is that I would never really act on the things I think of, they are just one of thousands of possibilities of things I could do or things that could happen... its like our minds work too fast for our processors...heheh its like someone overclocked our minds, so our bodies start locking up like a computer...I guess I dont have much advice, but perhaps comfort in the knowledge that your not alone. It helps me to talk about these things with my boyfriend... he laughs with me at some of the strange things I think of. I find comfort in that, that these thoughts arent a big huge secret that I am carrying around...and that we can laugh at them. That means alot to me.Good luck
