Dear Friends,
Thanks for the cheers. It really means alot to me.I visit the sight often and anxiously look for replies and it has been so awesome to feel supported by all of you. It was weird today. I would get a crave and immediately all of your advice and encouragement would come to mind and I would shake it off and when I did that, a calm feeling of peace would come over me and I was happy with my decision to not cave in. I wrestled with the decision to finally stop smoking for about a month, facing the inevitable that I HAD to quit or more serious health issues would surface and I was scared. I had smoked for 30 years and always kidded myself that I would just stop when I turned 50 and I didn't. So I was mad at myself deep down.Now that I am 52 and went in for routine check up this past summer and was ordered to go for every test immaginable, I knew that the TIME had come to quit. I had some pretty scary moments learning if I had a heart blockage but it came back OK. How could I look fate in the eye and dare to keep on smoking when every doctor I saw in the last month urged me to quit? I'd be a fool to not listen. I feel so relieved to have finally set a quit date and do it. It has been 2 days now. I feel good still about making the commitment to stop. Now I know why Free at Last took that as a sign on name. Thank You again. Maria :)