Cuddles and Eve,
Glad you guys are with me! Eve, this is what I am feeling and I am...
Glad you asked. Most of the time I feel absolutely great about not smoking. Yippee!!! I did it for so long that not smoking really does feel like a foreign language that may take me some time to catch on to and feel comfortable with. I have gained some weight, one clothing size. So, I have bought a few clothes in the new size to tide me over. Last night, my husband and I entertained some friends from out of town who we very rarely see. Even though we are trying to get ready for this long trip I insisted that we take the time to visit with them. It really was lovely but the conversation did turn to how on some of their travels they ran across states that allowed smoking sections in restaurants and how unpleasant it was. Florida has not allowed smoking sections for a few years now. Okay, fine I am not smoking but I did feel a little funny discussing the subject as it hasn't been that long since my last puff. I do realize how bad cigarette smoke smells to a non-smoker but I also still have a few friends that smoke. Anyway, the whole subject made me feel very ambivalent. And, I do know though that at least three of the folks contributing to the conversation (besides me) were former smokers. So I guess what I am trying to say is smokers are not the enemy but cigarettes are. Which we all know.
Okay, now on the how I feel when not confronted with former/non-smoker attitudes. Really feel pretty darn good! There are times when my body (or brain) still thinks that it wants a cigarette but those times are becoming fewer and fewer. I have gained some weight like I said and that is some what of an issue for me. Weight was one of the things that I had some control over in my former smoking life. Now, it is a tad bit of a battle. I am trying my best to view this weight thing as a short-term inconvenience and figure, so what! I deserve (and am trying to be proud of) to have a few more pounds to carry around. Better than starting to huff and puff and end up wearing an oxygen mask!
Other than that....Bahamas/Abacos should be a breeze. No worrying about who I can and can't smoke in front of. And all that crap that comes with the smoking addiction. I hated goi