Hi Janice, I remember beginning a reply to you this morning but then stopped cuz I couldn't formulate something that seemed appropriate. I don't suffer from the severe panic attacks that you described and it's only been recently that I've been able to cry freely - but what I CAN relate to is feeling out of control, feeling like a burden and worrying how my attacks are affecting others. My heart went out to you when I read your post - the concerns about how it affects your little one, how at times it feels like you're burdening others - feeling like a "loon" - so often we beat ourselves up for these things that aren't (at least in my opinion) our "fault" - some of us have a chemical imbalance, some of us weren't raised with the life coping skills that others were, some of us were exposed to severe trauma, could be all of the above :p - either way, I don't believe it's our 'fault' - we're not trying to be dramatic or be victims - we're suffering and we're afraid and we WANT to be "better", stronger, capable - if we didn't, we wouldn't be here, at this site searching for support, advice, and coping skills......I know I didn't answer your question but I wanted to say hello and support you in whatever way I could. :) Hope to hear more from you!
luv & hope,
-SCBB
