Before you read this post..........it carries a health hazard. Please DO NOT continue reading if you are new or vulnerable in your quit.
I wrote part of this as a reply to another thread, but want to post it here too. Why??? Who knows!?! But perhaps it may help someone.....perhaps even me!
Two weeks ago. I found out that my best friend, and quit buddy, had started smoking again. Just to fill you in a bit....she wasn't a new quitter.....but had a 2 year+ quit. Things have been difficult in her personal life and, for reasons that only she can explain, she stared smoking again.
I can't begin to explain what "irrational" thoughts that brought to my mind! But, suffice to say, the old junkie started whispering in my ear "Ahhh well, if SHE'S doing it, so can you!"
What the he11 is that all about?????????? Is that voice talking to me????? In my ear?????? Is the 'Demon' seriously tring to take ME on again???????
OMG, after 2 years+, all those early feelings want to resurface! No no no no no no no no no!!!!! I won't have it!!!! But, those feelings are back ........diluted, but back!
I'll take that 'Demon' on any time he wants to fight me! I'll take him on and I'll win EVERY SINGLE FLAMIN' TIME.
Yes....'he' can sow seeds of doubt in my mind AND 'he' can whisper in my ear.....but I'll NEVER let 'him' win. Because I know, that in a weeks time, I'll be back to normal. I'll be back to full strength and won't give that 'addiction' the flippin' time of day ..... (until the next time )
And there will be a next time. Of that I am sure. This is what it's all about?!? But I didn't realise it until now. my friend. This addiction will come back to haunt me, and you, every so often. Just out of the blue. Just when we least expect it.
But I'm ready.......and so are you!!
There WILL be occasions when we will "doubt" our decision. There WILL be occasions when we have to question ourselves and what we believe. There will be occasions when it would be easier to give in than put up a fight! We will try and think back to what it was like in the first week or two.
But....you know what? I will fight this d*mn addiction head on time after time after time. It will NEVER beat me. NEVER!!!!
And it won't beat you either.
Just be ready. Just
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