Hello, I have tried to quit smoking a few times, the most successful was 2 years ago when I quit for 3 months, I honestly do not know why I went back to smoking. It stops me from breathing properly, I even got cervical cancer which I was told was exasperated by my smoking, yet still I have continued to smoke. I have read the Allen Carr book, and found that helped.
Recently I have really been determined to quit smoking, apart from anything I cannot afford it. My doctor has prescribed Zyban, which I found helpful, as it didnt contain nicotine. But i ran out of tablets. Tonight i picked up another months prescription.
My problem is that after a few days, I pretty much go psycho. My boyfriend calls me pscyho sally, and I have said the most awful things. I am not normally like this towards him (or anyone else). Then we end up having a huge fight, almost breaking up, and I go and buy cigarettes. The first one tastes disgusting then it doesnt take long before I am back to smoking the same amount again.
I really would like to be in a group with other people, So that i dont have to see my boyfriend whilst i am going through the worst.
he is a very casual smoker, so doesnt understand that i am unable to cut down.The last time I quit, and we had a huge fight, i begged him not to be ok with me, and see that i am not really psycho sally, I so did not want to buy another packet of cigarettes, I know that the first three weeks are the most difficult, and then later, its an amazing feeling. As I have smoked since i was 15, so when i finally do quit, and am no longer craving the cigarette, when i get there, I am a person that I did not know exists.
I want to quit smoking, but I dont want to lose my relationship. If I could get support from elsewhere - I would really appreciate it.
I smoke around 20 a day, and have smoked for 22 years.
