As many of us, I have been a serial quitter for the past 10 years. I think the longest that I ever went without one puff was 2 months. I found this sight, but still struggled for the past year; clean for 2 months using nrt, smoke one; clean for 3 weeks using nrt, smoke 4; clean for 2 weeks again, using nrt; smoke 5. I could see where it was going. Not to mention the fact that I was keeping myself in a constant state of withdrawal. It was much better than smoking 1 1/2 packs a day, but I knew that I wasn't making the break with nicotine. My mother passed away the beginning of May, I smoked two packs over a weeks time and put them down again. Why do I feel different this time? It is the constant decision NOT to smoke. It is ALL mental for me right now. I no longer feel like I am just "holding out" until a sufficient amount of time has passed so I can rationalize smoking a cigarette. Sure, I feel like crying sometimes. I feel restless. I feel like there is nothing to look forward to at times. But, I do not feel like I would give my right arm for a cig right now. I've always felt that way in the past. I always WANTED a cig, but kept myself from smoking for weeks at a time. This time I can say that I DON'T want a cig. I want to go through the withdrawal, the depression, the introspection, the anger. I want to walk the journey and know what it feels like to start feeling better; start thinking about cigs less and less (until those thoughts go up in smoke and disappear) and finally experience the joy of being free.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/25/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 13
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 351
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $48.75
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 16 [B]Mins:[/B] 49 [B]Seconds:[/B] 1
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$91,816.00
Amount Saved
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Days: 6073
Hours: 11
Minutes: 49
Seconds: 37
Life Gained
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45908
Smoke Free Days
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459,080
Cigarettes Not Smoked
