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19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1521

Pamala, Stay strong, take sometime to relax and unwind. Make good use of your coping mechanisms. Get right back on the wagon and resume your quit. You can do this! Take Care, Melanie ____________________ The SSC Support Team

19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 8

[color=Brown]Saddle up your horses!!![/color] ;) Glad to see you're getting right back on. I know I'm gonna need ya with my quit date coming up.

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$359,509.80

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Days: 5234 Hours: 7

Minutes: 55 Seconds: 17

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46091

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553,092

Cigarettes Not Smoked

19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 852

Hello there MystikPamala! Glad to see you picked yourself up and are ready to move forward! :) My girls are 7 & 3. My youngest is almost 4 now, so I know how frustrating that age can be! Some days I think they are taken over by an alien and sent here to see if I can explode. Although my kids are my inspiration for quitting, they can be my worst enemy too. I am a stay at home mom, so they are pretty much my world. I dont get adult time. So when I have had enough, the smoking thought enters my head. That is my weakness. I had to learn and re-learn how to cope with that. Now, when I am at my wits end, I come here. I usually just read, but even that helps. I also lock myself in the bathroom. Its the only place for complete privacy. I breath and talk myself down. I am one who can talk myself into anything! In this case, it is a benefit!!1 Stay strong. We are here for you! ;) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 26 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 794 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $85.02 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 2 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 8 [B]Seconds:[/B] 49

19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1687

WELCOME BACK PAMELA, we all knew that this was going to be a tuff journey right, but this addiction knows how to push our buttons and we have got to learn how to push back. You are a brave person to come to the site and say please help me and you know that we will. I look forward to seeing all of your posts from now on... :) SUNSHINE [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/7/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 83 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,422 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $290.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 12 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 57 [B]Seconds:[/B] 54

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$233,335.69

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Days: 6828 Hours: 7

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46091

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691,365

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19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 58

ang....I did get right back on my quit... I only reset the quitmeter for myself really.. kind of to keep me honest... and I'm feeling NO cravings/urges at all and loving it!!! also, I'm really not sure why, but I'm vaguely certain that they didn't taste THIS bad to me last time.. it was volitile, and I nearly hurled... and I've NEVER felt like that... so I think part of it was probly my subconcious... which is GREAT! b/c then my body's now saying that NO I DON'T want to smoke! woohoo... okies done rambling for now lol....

19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 58

*hugs* I know what it's like to be a stay at home mom... I sort of am one.. I have my own Mary Kay business at home... Tho I generally take my daughter with me if her dad and my bf are working and I have an appointment... most of my days I'm at home alone with her and it gets VERY boring LOL.. *hugs* and stay strong also!

19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 58

peanut.. I did once quit for almost a year... but that was a long time ago lol... but I know I won't be falling off this again.. I don't care what my stress level's like... last night I about got sick.. I've NEVER puked from a cigarette.. even the very first time lol... not happening no way no how... thanks for the great support here ppl! *hugs*

19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 58

:mad: My 4 yr old daughter has been driving me crazy all day!!!! and I mean from the moment she woke me up.... constantly bugging me... and yes four yr olds like attn, but she's not listening, she was getting into stuff, running down the aisle at the store... she almost NEVER acts like this, and NEVER has acted like this for more than an hour or something..:mad: I'm so frustrated that this evening.. about 30 minutes ago I went and bought a pack of cigarettes... :8o:I just gave up 6 days of progress... on the bright side, they taste like CRAP!!!! I don't know why I wanted them now... so I've slipped and smoked.. but I definitely know now that I'm not going to continue also.... on a scale from one to ten on how hard this has been before today I was at an average of a 2.. it was soooo easy.. today ALL DAY had been a 10... :mad: I'm mad at myself for slipping.. but I do know now that no matter how hard my day is after this I'm not going to smoke another one.. after 6 days it was sooooo NASTY tasting to smoke one.. and it was a menthol ultra light! which was the only thing I'd smoked in the past 4 yrs... :8o: blech! I don't what I was thinking... yuck! :8o: okies I've admitted I've screwed up.. I'm about to reset my quit meter and date it for tomorrow... NOT proud of myself but I will get over this and I will not smoke again! YUCK!!! lol Pamala

19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 218

sorry you relapsed. I know they taste like crap but you know after awhile they dont and than your a full time smoker again! Thats what happened to me and thats what happened to you the first time you ever smoked a cigg!! Make your quit attept starting now, dont deley. Just keep in mind how disgusting it was! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 58 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 294 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $464 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 15 [B]Mins:[/B] 53 [B]Seconds:[/B] 59

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$28,483.00

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19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 210

Keep up the quit, You know now that once you have experienced the freedom from not smoking you will never be happy smoker again. :) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/31/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 304 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,087 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1368 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 31 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 19 [B]Seconds:[/B] 13

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