Stu,
My hand is outstretched to you, my friend! Please take it, for you have offered me so many hands, and so many hugs, when I've been down, I can do nothing else but try to repay the favor.
Forget about all of the other attempts. Put them in the past. The ONLY one you need to concentrate on is this one. I know that's not easy to do, but when you get down, try to think of all you've accomplished, not all of your failed attempts. For actually, you are not a failure if you keep trying. And if you keep trying, you WILL succeed! When you feel like you can't go on, come here and post. PLEASE, post your own thread stating your problems and asking for help... I know that's not easy for you to do, but there is NO shame in asking for assistance... it's A LOT better than coming here and telling us all that you've blown your quit! You KNOW how that feels and I know you don't like it, so come here first. Nobody will look down on you for asking for help. That's what we're here for.
Stand tall Stu! You're kicking one of the hardest addictions to kick, and it's NOT easy. You have a lot to be proud of. Hold your head high and think about your family and all that you have worth living for.
I found this poem posted here when I first quit and I copied it to my quit diary, and I want to post it here for you.
Determination
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road your trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and its turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When they might have won, had they stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victors cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when your hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst that
