Struggling -
Per your post ~ you are acutely aware that the words in your head are the junkie talking, so the awareness and clarity is there, dear one.
Like everyone has said, it's a choice, it's a HUGE choice. It's your LIFE. It's smoking or not smoking. It's your health or being a smoker. It's being clean and fresh rather than stinking. So many life-changing choices, eh?
Not everyone "relapses" - I have not slipped, I am one of the blessed ones who has read and read and read more and more about the slips, and the sadness, the junkie talk - that in just one moment, one of our Quit family here let go of their guard for just one second, just one flash. And SNAP - there's the slip... I have learned from others, as Pam so wisely stated. If I can learn from another's experience, rather than falling on my face, which choice would I make?
There is so much information on this website, read and read and read some more... Build your toolbox of coping skills/proactive behaviors so that when the junkie talk begins - you can wipe it out! Get pissed at the junkie, just get pissed! That'll take care of that junkie crap talking...
Now, in this moment, you are blessed with the same choice.
How committed are you to YOUR QUIT? How important is it that you stay QUIT?
It's a choice...
Blessings coming your way-
Healer
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 32
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,152
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $76.8
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 33 [B]Seconds:[/B] 42