ItsIronic, guitarplayerswife, Casey, ladybugg, CobenFan, Sunflower, 4my2girls, KCChiefsGal, Thank you all for your responses. Right now I just feel like hell, Will I ever be able to be strong enough to do this? Will I always keep trying and failing. Yes Lady It is a cop out, yes I am feeling sorry for myself and yes I gave into the addiction. I gave up on myself again. I was doing great climbing that mountain and going around the obsticals, then I plunged down into a big hole. I hate this addiction and I hate losing my control.
I know I need to climb back out again and get my act together. I want to be a non smoker.