NEUROTIC?
Hullo, Brenda, Breather, Peteg and Jason
Cheers for 'talking to me' ... I do appreciate it. I live in a world divided strictly into two ... on one side are the NEVER smokers and on the other side there is the NEVER tried to give up smokers ... so I have no one here to empathise with my 'suffering'. I seem to do a little better earlier in the day ... but as the evening wears on ... my frustration levels begin to rise (It seems that 'I' am 5 hours ahead of most of 'you' ... time wise!) My post shows that it was written at 7.00pm (ish) but in reality ... I wrote it about midnight, after yet another evening of mindless TV. Yes ... I does seem that for the moment, I have misplaced my 'mo-jo' ... but I am just trying to take things as they come ... I know that eventually my frustration will drive me into being a little more productive with my time but since giving up the smokes ... my body feels a little broken and my mind is a bit angry and obsessed, therefore I am tiptoeing through each day in fear of upsetting this dysfunctional little balancing act that I have going on .
Brenda ... yeah, the excercise will have to come sooner rather than later ... because if I keep eating as I am doing ... and not exercising, they are gonna have to remove the roof of my house to get me out!!! Hey ... you must be thrilled with your success in keeping yourself trim ... well done. I cant believe that you have the will power to stop smoking and exercise ... but it is a sensible thing to do (I know!) Keep at it Brenda ... do you have any 'before' and 'after' photos?
Breather ... thanks for sharing some of your 'bad' times with me ... I know it might seem weird ... but it does help to know how much other people suffered (I know! ... it is a little warped and twisted of me!) but seriously, especially in these early days ... 'we' need to know that 'we' are being normal? and no ... there was nothing specific that triggered it off ... just craziness and frustration ... I just needed to vent!
Peteg ... I knew you would understand!!! ... and no ... I haven't smoked. Yes, almost each minute of each day it is very tempting to have 'just one' to put an end to this suffering ... but I am trying not to give in to these urges ... as it is these urges that made me stay a smoker for almost 30 years .... God! I feel like a junkie ... and this is SO hard. Still ... onwards and upwards my friend ... let me know how things are going for you ... I am a good listener ... it is in my job description!!
My Mileage:My Quit Date: 9/9/2010
Smoke-Free Days: 8
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 120
Amount Saved: �37.80
Life Gained:Days: 0
Hrs: 18
Mins: 25
Seconds: 4