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Hi Everyone :)
I know (logically anyway), that MDD is an illness. At the same time, it feels like it's something I should snap out of. I also know (again logically), that it takes a long time to go through the recovery process.
I'm on my 13th day on Pristiq, and I do notice that I have more energy, but my mood isn't improving yet-- except for yesterday. Yesterday I woke up and felt like my old self. I had plenty of energy, felt happy, cleaned the whole house, and had a couple of dinner guests over. Today, I feel right back where I was when I was diagnosed. I had a great deal of difficulty getting out of bed, have zero motivation to do anything, am very tired, and have a bit of a sucky attitude.
To not feel completely defeated, I had to remind myself that I'm dealing with an illness and that I'll have good days and bad as I move through my recovery. But I'm not sure if I'm buying it.
Have others found this to be true for their own recovery? That weirdly, you have a healthy day, and the next you feel emotionally/physically crippled? It's disheartening. I just wanted to check in with everyone else about their experience with this.
deb