Don´t know how to begin...
M,
I've got 30 yrs recovery behind me - and thanks to PTSD it's been kept green all these years, as if it was yesterday. So, if you need any help, you can ask the Team for my e-mail, if that's allowed and you want to. It's always an option and an offer.
The last person I helped continually said he'd never get better, this is awful,nothing ever worked before, etc, etc., and I promised him it would change if he did a few simple things (well ok, more than a few). And the promises came true. He is an amazing new person. Night and day.He feels great now that he's a free man.
But, first things first, you need to be clean to think, so while you're doing your 30 days, look at getting thru one at a time, and then another, and another, and so on. Before you know it, the fog will lift.
Best Wishes, Andie