I overcame my negative thoughts this morning!!! :) I told myself that I was not going to let the negative thoughts consume my mind anymore and I did some deep breathing and then began to think positive thoughts! I used to think people were crazy when they would say just tell the thoughts to leave and try deep breathing because before it never worked for me. I am very excited about it. Also, wanted to share with everyone that I quit my Bowling league last night for Sundays. That was part of me breaking free from negativity. There was always Drama, arguing and gossiping going on and after my teammate walked out on us in the middle of a game a few weeks ago, he was allowed to come back the last 2 weeks and bowl and has treated me like crap. Last night I got to Bowling and my teammates and him were there along with 3 other people that don't even bowl! They all sit at the table week after week which makes it crowded and they all smoke with totally sucks. Anyways, there was no place for me to sit and I had to sit with the opposite team at their table. I finally had enough and told my team captain that I would finish out the night and then I was done. She even had the nerve to ask why! I was up front with her told her this all was B.S. and I wasn't dealing with it anymore. Well, the timing worked out well, because the team I sat with asked me if I would start bowling with them until their Mom came back from her heart attack. So I still get to do what I love, just with another team! ~ also, I was more in my comfort zone last night with the other team than I have ever been with my own! :)
Some of my friends swear by Meditation...they say nothing else is needed! Well, I am not to that point yet, but am willing to try the meditation. I have read up on it yesterday and plan to really focus on trying! I will let everyone know any helpful tips I learn and my progress with it! Good luck to Everyone!
Thank you Samantha, Davit and Red! I also tried weaning off my Xanax yet again. I so far have made it off one day, on one day, off one day and now tonight will be my on day. I can feel some of the physical symptoms coming back, but not full force. I am more irritable though I have noticed. I feel like I am in a good mood, then BAM someone sets me off! Is this normal for coming off the Xanax? I am also very nervous because tomorrow I am having the Mirena put in to help control my hormones. I keep telling myself that it is something that will help me and improve things a lot! Hard to convince the anxiety though! :) I think I am doing ok getting off the Xanax so far. I also started a daily vitamin today and am continuing my Iron pill as well. I am also doing exercise a lot more and deep breathing. I am hoping to get more physically fit and at the same time mentally fit! I guess those are 2 of my goals.
Thank you Davit! I am doing ok right now thinking about tomorrow. I am very excited that I am able to start weaning off the Xanax...last time I tried I couldn't do it! So I am making progress getting this far already! I was very rude to a cashier today at the pharmacy when I went with my Mom. Apparently I was so bad that I embarassed my Mom which never happens! I am always the upbeat, happy, friendly, outgoing, optimistic girl and today I turned into instant *****. The lady told my Mom that the total was over 200 dollars for 2 prescriptions and I told the lady that it can't be right and she said why can't it? - That instantly set me off because any other time when the insurance doesn't cover so much, they always say before they ring it up that it will be this much and she didn't even care that my Mom had to pay that much money. Well, I told her to check the insurance because she had gotten it there before and her copay was 20 dollars. I continued to argue with her and finally I put hand up and shooshed her away and said just go do what you need to do to fix this. It took the lady probably 15 more minutes to get it taken care of the new total was her normal co-pay by the time we were done. My Mom whispered to me that I needed to read her name tag and it said Beauty consultant/advisor. I felt bad that I was rude but at the same time she made me mad that way she responded. I don't think I would have been so hard on her if I would have known that she had no idea what she was doing when it came to pharmacy. I think I owe her an apology though the next time I go there. :)
I definitely overgeneralize all the time. I can take an ache or a red spot on my skin and turn either into something that I could die from! I am trying to do better lately...working on not overreacting. I also did it today after my procedure I had tons of stuff going through my head. It makes it hard sometimes to live a normal life.
I hope that you do ok Amj. So far I have been alternating on and off with .125 mg once a day of the xanax and seem to be doing better than I expected. It is almost like I am scared that I am feeling so good that something will go wrong. I need to do more work on my negative thoughts!
Just wanted to let everyone know that my procedure went better than expected. It did hurt a lot for a little while, but overall it went really well! I had myself so worked up and I think the pain triggered my anxiety a little at that moment. I have been trying to counteract my negative thoughts since the procedure. It is really hard to convince myself that everything went ok. It is like I am looking for symptoms and side effects that are not there. I just need to forget that this was done and go on living my life. I finally stopped looking up info on possible things that could go wrong. That is progress! :) I am also doing well on weaning off of the xanax so far. I am hoping that I do ok with the Mirena and also hope it doesn't cause anxiety or depression as a side effect which is possible. I feel like I am heading in a positive direction in my life for the first time in a long time. I hope that it continues to be successful and I wish everyone luck in their journeys towards peace and happiness!
Thanks Davit and Amj! Yes I am noticing foods tasting better and just yesterday told my Mom that I am smelling things stronger...glad to know why now! I am noticing I am feeling worse now the nights I take xanax and the following day I feel worse. Does that mean that I am ready to be off the xanax?
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