Hi fullhse,
I was wondering how you were doing. I know exactly what you are going through. Only, I have been on this quitting rollercoaster ride for TWO years. It is exhausting, I know. (I was a 30 + year smoker, 1 1/2 packs a day). During the past two years, I have read "The easy way to quit smoking", I have been to numerous websites to read about nicotine addiction, I have used the patch, the gum, the quit smoking shot (twice), nicotine lozenges, hypnotic cd's, the patch again, lozenges again...and on and on and on. There is no magic pill, fullhse. But, this journey of the past two years has prepared me for this quit. I am going to stay smoke free this time. I don't care how I feel. (I have said this many times before, but for some reason, that statement means something to me now). Something has finally clicked in my brain! This past year of struggling for you is preparing you for your final quit. It is up to you to decide when that is going to be. Nothing, but ourselves, will make us quit smoking. As addicts, we have to face the truth about this addiction. In the past two years, the longest that I stayed completely smoke free was 3 months. Then, I would try and limit my number of cigs per day; I would see my use escalating after a few weeks, then i would quit completely again.. and round and round and round. It just keeps us addicted, craving, and in limbo about our quits. We cannot smoke just one, fullhse. You know that. Do what you need to do to get out of this yo yo lifestyle of addiction. You are punishing yourself, as I did. Read, prepare yourself, get positive about the joys of not smoking, being free from this addiction, and then set a NEW quit date. Decide if you are going to us NRT to help you with the withdrawal, or some form of non nicotine aid (wellbutrin, chantix???) Look at my story, fullhse. It is so like yours. We can do this. Soooo much is mental. You either get to the place where smoking is absolutely NOT an option, or you live a constant life of craving, smoking, not smoking, until eventually you are back in the arms of the addiction, full force. It is a life long sentence of declining health, zapped energy, slavery to nicotine, bad breath, stinky clothes and hair, numbed emotions, sucking our income, bad feelings about ourselves, etc, etc, etc. Time is going to pass fullhse, whether we smoke or not. Let the time pass as a non smoker. Before you know it, another year will have gone by and you will be FREE! Let us know your new quit date. Prepare yourself. You can do it..you really can.
new me
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]5/26/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 240
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $50.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 10 [B]Mins:[/B] 49 [B]Seconds:[/B] 13
