Well, knew it had to happen. Things having been going along so good.. and boy have I enjoyed it. Then today, well we will just say it hasn't been so awesome. The first day at work that I had to deal with a few things that are real triggers. Then had some family issues after work... lets just say I have teenagers, 'nough said there. LOL! My friend at work went back to smoking and went out on our breaks, but I didn't. The old thoughts came back on my way home from work. "You are having problems, what's so wrong with smoking? Why quit?" Well, instead of thinking about that I thought about the issues at hand and got home without stopping at the store. Then, after getting home and dealing with the problems at hand, I think I could have ate a pack of cigs if I had them. I once again thought about other things and got through it all. So, I am still smoke free... Smoking is not an option. Quiting is the best thing I have done in a very long time. I am taking it all one day at a time, and as for today... one second at at time. I am just so very thankful that I have had so many good days... and so many more good days to come. BUT, with all of that said... I am very angry. Angry at the hold that this addiction has on me. Angry that when facing things like today that my first thought is of smoking. Little does this addiction know, but I am taking control!!! I will win this one!!!
Hope everyone is doing well... Take care everyone and thank you all so much for being here. It is great to be able to come here and let my feelings out. It is a major aid in my quit! Thanks!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/18/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 20
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 314
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $60
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 44 [B]Seconds:[/B] 10
