Hello. I thought I would have a glass or two of wine last night, and then stop drinking. As usual, it didn't happen. I drank the whole bottle and then some. After that second glass, something happens to my mind. I just can't stop. This happens a few times a week. I love the idea of cutting back, and, ironically, on social occasions I can easily limit myself, but when I'm alone I lose control. And I love to drink alone. So my pledge is to stop drinking entirely. I remember how great I felt as a kid, before I ever had my first drink. So much energy. So much imagination. If I could have even a fraction of that back again I would feel happy. I hate that I lose control. I hate the time I lose to recovering. I've tried cutting back. It just doesn't work for me. I've quit for months at a time, but when I've started drinking again thinking I could moderate it, I quickly got back to my old habits. I'm glad this is a place to share. Maybe with the support I'll succeed this time.
