My junkie brain has been very funny this week.
First off this time around (for those who don't know I quit for 4 1/2 months smoked for 2 then got my butt right back here) the cravings haven't been as vicious. No tears, no screaming, no staying in bed for hours and HEY I'm not complaining. It has, however been much sneakier. I have nearly ended up smoking because my junkie brain has been much sneakier. Here are some of the highly logical rhetoric that has been going on between my ears.
"Wow, I've done really well. I should reward myself with a cigarette"
"I've shown I can quit now, so I can have some and just quit again"
"Gee that cigarette looks stylish" (know that my usual wardrobe consists of sweats)
"I should leave a pack of cigarettes around just to prove how strong I am"
and my personal favorite
"I really should go get a pack and smoke some to prove I don't really need them"
Watch out for the sneaky junkie. You have to deal with the big ass bully junkie for the first week and then he brings his icky cousin sneaky junkie in for backup.
Sheller
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 152
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $50
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 54 [B]Seconds:[/B] 8
