Hi: yes, I feel up and down moods too. I have been depressed with deaths in the family (2 brothers when I was a teenager and a sister of cancer, then my father) and right now a best friend has only days to live - cancer. I know what you mean about starting something. It feels as though it's for no use at all, it may be just a keep busy project and who cares anyway. I found though that volunteering helps me think of others, not dwell on my own problems. I'm a creative person, so I start a project which will be of benefit - shelves in a closet, for example, or clean out the basement. Then I can see a concrete result of my efforts and I feel proud of myself that I can do those things. Eventually my mood changes - I do try to understand what I'm going through, and why, was there a trigger? that sort of thing...right now I know I'm sad because of my friend's suffering (which is a normal reaction and I try not to be hard on myself right now)- nothing I can do to help her but be there and hold her hand, say some prayers, support her husband. And of course, winter is coming, not keen on the cold at all. I am going to force myself to walk the dog even if it's short walk just around the block. Keep posting, it helps. Good luck.
