Hi Lisa!
Wow, deja vu! I too am an RN, was on Zoloft for about 8 years for anxiety, panic and depression. As with you, it worked so well for a while it was like a new life! Then slowly I started having attacks again, went up in dosage, never quit having those darn attacks tho. Finally I went off Zoloft this March. I was never on a benzo though, so I can't really relate to that. All I do know is this. After SLOWLY weaning off zoloft, (and I am sure you know to do that, if not for yourself, then for your patients) I am actually much better. Don't get me wrong, I still have panic attacks, but the intensity of them seems to be less severe than they were on zoloft. I don't know if getting off meds is an option for everyone. I decided to do it because I had some nasty side effects from Wellbutrin which is what the doc put me on to wean off zoloft and that, coupled with the nasty withdrawal from zoloft just put me in the mood of "NO MORE DRUGS" I too, am perimenopausal and wonder if that is part of the problem in my increased anxiety that made me go to the doc to try another med, and wonder if hormones have something to do with all of this anxiety in the first place. Now that I have started on the panic program here, I can see that there very well may be a pattern related to my panic attacks, at least in the last month I can see that there is. In fact, the stupid thing that I see now is how for years I have made my panic worse by falling into the cycle of thinking about panic which induces panic and goes on and on and on. I know that with time, I can unlearn this behavior, and no medication is going to unlearn it for me, since it wasn't a medication that made me learn it in the first place! Still often I wish I could go to the doctor and say 'give me something to stop this!' !!!! If you do find a miracle drug, let me know! LOL! In the meantime, just from my experience with the panic program and I am also at the same time reading the Weekes book "Peace from Nervous Suffering", I am starting to unlearn some of this panic inducing behavior that I have had... and remember, "wean sloooooooooowly off zoloft" if you do go off of it, if you need help, let me know cuz I know just how it feels! Good luck to you Lisa,
Jane :)