Oh, Sirius... got those tears in my eyes reading about the funeral and especially the hawk. What a gift! Both in the message you received and in sharing it with us. I'm glad it brought you peace. I hope you have a laptop so you can check in with us while you are on bed rest. Do, please... take care of yourself and let others help you out and support you through this. Good for you following up with your doctor... that's not always easy to do. Just a thought, but have you learned how to do the box breathing and relaxation exercises? Maybe it will help. Hard to start, but helpful in calming the heart and mind....