Hi everyone, Your posts were full of encouragment, thank you, I loved the prayer So tired and thank you for saying I was strong Becky that helped I feel I have lost my strength so that was good too hear I hope I can get and be strong again. Vickers you are probably right about the urination and the Paxil, the reason I have been sleeping on the couch is when my husband works all night for some reason I feel better there, he is starting a new job on day shift soon so I will not be alone every night, the change of job is scary but I hope it will all work out. The paxil is sedating me, tonight I fell asleep after dinner for 2 hours!! That is not good I should be out walking with my son, I dont know if its just the exhaustion or depression or medicine or all three. I so want to feel like myself again {I have kind of forgotten who Debbie is} does that make sense? Its like "who is this panicky sad stranger" I alone tonight and trying to get through the night, I am praying very hard to our Lord for the courage to get well again, I know we are all suffering from one degree to another with this and I pray every night we will find the relief we deserve. I guess I am surprised how fast I fell down and I want to get back up again, if for no other reason on earth for my son whom I love so very very much. Thank you all for your replies and prayers. God bless, Debbie.

Hey Debbie! I don't think Paxil is causing your kidney / urinary tract problems because the doctor said it was caused by EColi bacteria and that is not caused by a medication. I think the reason your back is hurting is because you have been sleeping on the couch (why are you sleeping on the couch?) and the frequent urination is being caused by you drinking so much water. "The simplest solution is usually the correct one." I'm not sure who said that, but I find it to be true. Also, I took Paxil and then Paroxetine when it came out and there was no difference. It's just a generic brand of Paxil. The only difference is the name. Stop asking yourself what if. What if will only make it worse! Whenever I find myself saying, what if, I throw up my hands and say, Oh to Hell with what if!! ;p Your nurse will not drop you if you call too often! This is her job. She is there for you - don't listen to your husband's nonsense about that! Call her if you need to ask her a question - that is why she is there!! Hang in there - I know things are really rough for you right now, but it will get better - I promise!

Hi Debbi, Paroxetine and Paxil are the same, i was on both and there was no difference. It disn't hurt my kidneys either. DId you know that anxiety can actually make you urinate more often? That's probably what's happening to you: you're anxious about it and it happens. Try not to focus on that, i'm sure it's just nerve-related. Hang in there: Paxil takes a few weeks before it really kicks in! But it really worked for me when i took it.

Hi Debbie, Try not to let your thoughts consume your, I completely understand your fear of medications and their side effects. It sounds like you are struggling so hard to get your anxiety under control and sometimes that can make it worse. I was on paxil two times and it really did help. I think there are points you reach in your life you have to have faith and trust that it will work, you just need to give it time. Just be knowledgeable of the side effects and if it causes you any (if your like me the anxiety will cause more effects than the actual medication) contact your doctor. Fearing the medication makes it so much more worse than it is. I can tell you are a very strong person by reading your posts, and I truly can identify with the fear that you feel, there are days that I am so afraid of everything and anything, my thoughts just get away from me and I "What IF"? myself to death. I am trying so hard to realize and hopefully it will sink in one day for me that all the worrying in the world is not going to change what is going to be. "IT IS WHAT IT IS" realistically I realize that but realizing and comprehending and practicing it are different things, but it has helped on occassion. Hang in there and don't be afraid, take care of yourself. Becky

If you feel you need to speak with your nurse, you should call her...especially if you are not comfortable with the medication...I sent you some prayers....I hope they help... Hugs, B

Debbi, You are not going anywhere...you are not going to die...you have a wonderful family....and they love you no matter what...I hope this helps... This morning, as soon as my mind woke up, I placed myself in God's arms. The first thing, before I was barely awake, I pictured myself climbing up into God's lap, and asking to be held, arms completely around me, embracing me wholly, surrounding my entire body. I can feel myself being accepted without question into a safe place. God's arms reach around me and cover my whole body. I feel comforted. I feel safe from anything and everything that is happening in the world. I am immediately protected from all my fears and worries. I am in the safest place in the world. I relax there and feel the protection, the unconditional acceptance. I go there to escape anything that I am worried about. I go there first thing in the morning when I am feeling that the world is not a safe place. I go there when I am short of breath or having pain or discomfort. He kisses my "owies" to make the hurt go away. I crawl up into God's lap like a small child gets into the favorite family chair, oversized for the child, sinking deeply into the soft cushion comfort all around me. I am securely enclosed in pillowy comfort. I feel like a child, secure from any expectations. I leave my adultness far behind somewhere, and I have no expectations to figure anything out, nothing I must solve, no problems to fix, no important decisions to make. I am comfortable and secure. God reassuringly embraces me all around my body, as the soft cushiony comfort engulfs me. God gently reminds me that I can stay as long as I like. I feel the peace of being completely protected and taken care of, and I stay as long as I like, in the comfort of knowing that he is mine and I am his. THANK YOU HEAVENLY FATHER FOR BEING HERE FOR ME. "For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind." -- 2 Timothy 1:7 Isaiah 41:13, "For I the Lord they God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not: I will help thee." Things will get better....Don't lose hope or faith. B

I forgot to mention I was on Paxil 3 years ago and it did not hurt my kidneys but now I am on "Paroxintine" generic Paxil, is it different? my insurance will not cover Paxil CR or regular, is it just a coicedence the frequent urination starts when I start up Paxil again {I stopped during the infection} I thought a UTI was caused by bacteria not Paxil?? Is a symptom of kidney dysfunction frequent urination, I thought it could be decrease. I want so much to call my nurse but my husband said to leave her alone that she will drop me as a patient if I bother or annoy her too much and she is the only decent medical help I have, perhaps I should not have gone off Zoloft I hear side effects and effects on the organs are very less with Zoloft, but it wired me so and did not help the anxiety but it helped the depression. Please say some prayers for me, I am so afraid and alone. Thank you, Debbie.

I am on day 2 of Paxil, it seems to be making my anxiety worse, I know that is typical so I am trying to work through it. I am having one wave of attack after another, my back is hurting me, upper and lower and I am urinating alot, I am afaid the infection is back even through the Doctor assured me that the 3-day Macrobid would work, I have been drinking alot of water perhaps that is why and the back pain could be unrelated, its hard to seperate physical and emotional anymore. I am afraid to continue taking the Paxil, because the side effects are "effect on Kidney sodium function" the ER Doctor verified that but the other walk-in-clinic Doc said it was cause by "E-coli" bacteria, I have got so much conflicting medical advice I am so confused. Should I stop taking the Paxil?? I do not want to hurt my kidneys, I so want to feel better the panic and depression feel just like 5 years ago, I am afraid now that I am older I will NOT recover this time. It was so hard any other woman would just call her primary care Doctor get a script and go on with life, not me I could not get in, saw a nurse-practioner that left town, had a life-threatning reaction to Levaquin {the vomiting blood and cold shake} The ER room then the urgent-care medical walk-in, if someone told me this story I would think they were making it up but it all happened to me, its like a nightmare and I feel like my kidneys are giving out or the anti-botic has caused terrible damage. I called a prayer-ministy line today for prayers, I just want someone to tell me I am not going to die and be alright, I hope the ant-botic worked, I have no fever or burning, just frequent urination and some back pain which I hope is caused by lots of fluids and the back by stress, I have been sleeping on my couch lately perhaps that did it. I am so afraid the Paxil will not work, its the generic "paroxitine" can it cause kidney failure?? This is so bad if someone offred me a million dollars or relief and cure from this hell, I would pick the relief, I feel like everyone has had it with me, I so much want the magic words, I hope the Paxil is not hurting me, I am taking it in the morning and the Klonopin at night, my pschyc nurse has been good to me she is the only one that helps, I sometimes think nurses know more than DOcto