Lehleh,
You are not alone...there is a lot of help...I know it takes so much energy to go to the doctor or even leave the house...I feel like no one understands sometimes as well...but there is help...my husband most of the time thinks I am 'crazy' and doing this to myself...but I find that this online support group helps a lot...
I know it is difficult, but try the doctor....and if your doctor does not spend enough time with you, try another one...
We are here for you...