Thanks again, guys,
Sunny,
Yes , they sure do! Yesterday was a bad one I'm afraid...even with all the things we did...I ended up a basket case.
I did take a .5mg last night just so I could relax and sleep. I'm a bit disappointed in a sense that I did but on the other hand I think maybe I should have tapered off over time...like one every other day or something. Stopping cold like that didn't do me any good. I have to stop thinking that I am disappointing people , I only end up hurting myself.
After the cake at grandma's my son and I went to get him some new boots for his summer job...so going out and about had never been an issue with me, well not so far anyway!
Today I'm still edgy but can cope so far.
Davit,
Well I'm glad I didn't seem too snarky! I have been doing my work, writing things down, relaxation cd's, breathing etc. but yesterday nothing seemed to calm me down.
You said awhile back that I was going too fast, maybe this is the case....I'm just so darned confused now ,I don't know which way to turn and I wonder if alot of it has to do with my sore hip, it does get a person down after awhile.
I did send a letter to my surgeon , letting him know what had transpired and getting his input as to when the surgery should be done. At least that is a step in the right direction.
I've tried the 10 questions and either I'm not doing it right or something ,I always seem to get hung up on them.
Ex: When it asks is it true? What that I feel like I can't stand myself in my own skin? Yes, it's true.
and so on. I wish you guys were here to help me through that part cause I just don't get it.
Funny, when I was just taking 0.5 mg , I felt like I was doing some progress ...every day I went through my stuff did the exercises and so on, I was very proud of myself. Now it seems like it was just an illusion after all...it wasn't me getting better it was the meds doing their job.
My Dr. did tell me to let him know how things had gone and that trying it over the weekend was a good time. To call him at any time . So I will .
I am sorry about the rant...I'm either hot or cold ...sheeeeesh I hate that.
Shadowkins