Wow CM 23+ hours without electricity. With everything that is going on on top of it. And no PAs! Woohoo, congratulations. Way to go. That is a good reason to give yourself a big pat on the back.
Thank you so much, you guys have made my day. You see the lights just went on here after 23 1/2 hours of no electricity or heat on this the coldest day of the year. With the windchill it was 27 below, going down to 30 below. And all this stress without a PA - hooray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Reading both your encouraging words has really touched me, if you could only see me I'm smiling right now. (my face has finally thawed out)
Thank goodness for this site & caring people like yourself and the moderators, no one is ever alone here.
Congratulations on all your great usccesses (80% wow, school) and realization (you are not your disorder)! Those are some major successes and steps in the right direction.
You should definetely pat yourself on the back and reward yourself. You deserve it! As for not rewarding yourself till you are all better...Would you do that to someone you love, refuse to reward them because they don't have it perfect yet?
Plus, think of it this way, managing to do what you are doing when you are well and unafraid is already a great accomplishment, but managind to do what you are doing when you don't feel great and are scared is an AMAZING accomplishment and deserves a great reward. So please, please, please be kind to yourself and reward yourself a little! You deserve it!
I know how it feels to not want to reward yourself while you still feel the way you do, but isn't that the same as holding yourself down? I still, and always will say you're an amazing person with diligence like I've never seen before. Because you go through the feelings you do, but still somehow go out to school and accomplish such great things...reward that part of yourself. The part that continues in spite of the bad. The part that believes in you.
I know that you are trying to get me to focus on what I have accomplished, but all I can focus on is what I can't. Like not being able to get back to work, like 2 years plus of my life spent battling one disorder or another.
I have been able to acknowledge something I couldn't for an awful long time and that is. I am more than a Panic, GAD or Depression survivor (the word I used to use was victim). I credit this to my going to college, I now know that I am capable of so much more, I am not defined by my disorder (s). I used to think everything revolved around the disorders and that was my identity. Sure I give myself credit at the time for what I have accomplished but as for rewarding myself, not when I am still in the state I am.
What about the fact that you are in school and that you are educating yourself? Isn't that something to like about yourself?!
Breanne, Bilingual Health Educator
I would say I could reward myself with chocolate, but have you heard the saying sweet tooth? I have sweet teeth, all of them. I have gained so much weight eating chocolate it's unreal. When I go to my dietitian next month and she weighs me boy am I in for it.
You know the reasoning behind me not rewarding myself, the way I see it I still have this disorder, I'm still struggling, I' still get agitated, angry and have mood swings. If one of these were to diminish or heaven forbid disappear altogether, then that would be cause for celebration. One of my social workers gave me a task to do, 3 times a week I was supposed (note the key word - supposed) to write myself a letter stating what I like about myself. She asked me to do that about 3 weeks ago & I haven't done it because at this point I don't like anything about myself.
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