Hello there . Havnt done a post for awhile now . This last week on the whole im improving . I am getting much better in the days , not close to perfect ( if there is such a thing) but better .
Still havnt taken my meds as i havnt been able to see my doctor as he is a busy man . Second week i havnt seen a doctor 'thud' !! I was thinking of moving in the surgery at one time lol
EXPOSURE ooooo as i still only have one child at home because other four are away at various members of family for the holidays i thought i would take advantage of just having the youngest and go for outings with her and hubby .
Yesterday i went to the dreaded indoor childrens playarea arghhh its huge full of children having the time of there lives but sooooo noisy . It wasnt my husband getting up all the time to look around for her to check her it was ME
. I made him sit with a cup of coffee while i kept doing the rounds .
We went to a huge store after that to have a good look around i was out 3 hours then in total and on the whole did very well .Daughter had a dental appointment in the afternoon which i was going to do but decided not to go with them but go to our biggest supermarket to get things for lunch GLUP . That i was nervous with but wanted to give it a shot on my own . Turned out i met son on the way and he came with me bless , but a few weeks ago i wouldnt have done that would still need hubby .
Later that night i had a big panic attack boohissssssss . But breathed it through for a fair while . It started because i was in alot of pain . I had a good few days before which was lovely .
Today we took daughter to the beach and moved onto a park where we had a picnic . She had a great time which was fantastic to see . Guilt is a terrible thing to live with and i have been guilty for many months now . I used to be the one who took my children out , mostly on my own . They have missed alot of outings . So those 3 hours were special .
Well thats me done for now , am going to miss this site being shut tomorrow !!!!
Take care everyone and have a great saturday
