I have also gotten fat on wine. Funny, aren't alcoholics supposed to be malnourished? I don't know what your first step should be, besides abstaining. I did some of the tools on this site and they reinforced my awareness of what alcohol is costing me- financially, socially, occupationally. That reinforces my motivation to abstain. Today is day 5 for me. On the advice of a dietician I am eating whole grains and lots of veg, lean protein. I find I am more hungry than unsual but I've learned thats to be expected right now. I'm worried about gaining weight but more worried about relapsing and the damage I've already done to my body, so if my body needs lots of quinoa and beans right now it will get it! What are you doing to care for yourself?