I am hoping that if I share my story, my experience, it will give someone out there some hope that things can get better. It has been 90 days since I quit drinking and I am so very thankful that I made the decision to stop. I had quit before, but this time I knew that moderating hadn't worked for me; and believe me, I had tried that in every way I knew how. I didn't really want to quit; it seemed like it wouldn't be possible to live my life without alcohol. But, I knew that alcohol had control in a way that was becoming more and more destructive to me. It was very scary initially to stop drinking; but, I found out that it is not only possible, it is in fact, much better.
We all are on our own unique path, and I can only speak from my experience and I found that the first few weeks were very tough. I used every tool and resource I could find to get through it. The first time of each experience is tough: first social outing, first celebration, first holiday. But in time, you find your strength and you see that you can do it. Each first time you overcome a challenge gives you increased confidence and resolve; until something shifts and it gets easier. And it does get easier.
All the trials of life are not solved because you quit drinking. But I found that I had the stamina and belief that I could get through things without alcohol. Things became clearer for me, less muddled and tied up in shame and guilt.
I feel lighter, freer, and no longer saddled down with the constant worry of drinking. My confidence is returning and I am feeling happier, more content. I see possibilities ahead and I am beginning to trust myself again. I am learning how to take care of myself, developing a sense of self-compassion, learning how to be honest about my emotions.
There is light on the other side. If I can do it, so can you!
