I am at work right now. I work in a hospital, and I wear a uniform. I got **** from my boss, because I was not wearing my uniform. The reason I was not wearing my uniform, is that I was suppose to meet a women for lunch. The girl who supplies the hospital with screws was supose to meet me for luch, but she called to say she couldn't make it. At least she called. She used every excuse in the book not to meet me some other day. Right there I told myself **** it I am taking tommorrow off, and I am going to drink tonight. I am so sick of try to find a relationship. It is all bull ****. Everytime. I do not want to drink, but situations like this is what usualy gets me to start drinking again. I have a hard time with disappointments, but I won't drink. I will not let someone else dictate wether, or not I will drink. I knew for the last week that she might cancel. I was a little prepared. It is really fustrating though. It has been 12 days now sober. I am using my tools right now that I have learned over the last few years to stay sober right now. It o.k. I will be fine. One day at a time. I'll just find something that will make me happy. At least tomorrow is Friday. I will try and keep busy all weekend. Well thtas it at least I am sharing, and not keepin it all in
