You are so right Foxman. In my case, one drink leads to many more. So, I simply cannot have that one drink. Before Christmas I had purchased wine, spirits and beer for my guests. My guests are "normal" drinkers and I had a lot of booze left in the house after they left. For the next several days I justified drinking every last drop by myself, because it was Christmas...a time to celebrate. I would even take a glass with me when I retired for the evening, wake up in the middle of the night and drink it. When I reflected on what I had done, how I felt while/after doing it and whether this was what I wanted to do for the rest of my life, I knew it wasn't which is why I am here. Hoppo, I know there are a lot of people who after long time alcohol abuse believe they can magically control their drinking but I wonder what percentage actually succeed. Personally, it has been a roller coaster and I am done trying to moderate. Only you can decide what kind of drinker you are Hoppo by being brutally honest with yourself.