86 Days of sobriety...Sometimes I wish the time would pass more quickly, but everything in it's time will happen as it happens and exactly when it is supposed to happen. Physically, I am getting stronger and healthier and ready to kick this "self induced - Alcoholic" End Stage Liver disease in it's butt!!! The amount of damage I did to my body is about even with the amount of damage I did to my family. I am so lucky, for some reason, I came out of drinking a 1.75 bottle of Vodka a day without losing my family, my friends, my job, my life. Thanks to my higher power and places like this to share recovery. I am taking this time around a little differently, I am in no rush to "finish" the steps...I want to make sure I don't miss anything along the way. I am finishing up my 1st step. I actually "turned it in" to my sponsor. I have more work to do on it, instead of just stating the facts I need to get to the feelings behind the facts. LOL...Why does everyone in recovery want to talk about "feelings"? Obviously it is the feelings behind the facts that led to our drinking. Since I can't drink (literally I will die within hours) I guess I will start on this feeling business. I make jokes, but I know it how important it is and I will do it.
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