I have had only bad experiences from binge drinking this year. Since promising myself in June I would moderate and drastically reduce, I have had two major slip ups. On Saturday I got 'black out' and had a one night stand. This is particularly weight on me, because I'm in a very new and healthy relationship with an amazing person. While we haven't had the 'exclusive' talk, I know how upset I'd be if I knew he had done the same thing. I wonder if I did it to self-harm. I know that I am a good person worth of love, but I can't believe I jeopardized it because of alcohol. This year I have learned the practice of self-compassion and will forgive myself for this and learn from it, but for now it is difficult.
