Hey, everyone!
I hope everyone enjoyed their day! I had an alright day. Rained most of the day here in Toronto, so a lot of my time was spent indoors. I did manage to have a good long walk with my dog this evening though.
I am not a religious person at all, really. Never have been. But, I have always been what I consider to be a very spiritual person. Recently, while trying to come to terms with my out-of-control drinking I have found myself feeling a little empty - like there has been something missing in my life. Something missing which I have been trying to replace with the alcohol.
Now that I no longer am wanting to have alcohol as part of my life this emptiness which I have experienced is being filled with something else slowly over time.
I can think of no other way to describe this feeling other than it being the feeling of goodness which is filling the void left by the alcohol. It's not something I expected, it's not something I planned for, but it is something that I like very much. It feels great to feel this emptiness being filled with something so wholesome; so natural-feeling; so belonging.
If this is what it feels like to be sober all the time - I want more.
If this goodness I feel is a "Higher Power" I want more.
If this goodness I feel is God - I want more!
Be well,
David.
Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God.
