This is my first time seeking help, and I am very nervous too. I hate admitting I have flaws, and admit that I am a perfectionist and have control issues (as well as being out of control when it comes to drinking, it seems). I know that I need advice and help though, because I've tried cold turkey alone and it didn't go so well.... in fact it ended in a drunken screaming match with my husband who is currently disgusted at me.