hi K and welcome to the SSC!
Penguin is right on. In the beginning, I would have gone right back to smoking if I thought it was forever. I know, I know, not the most poopular opinion here but that was how my brain worked. So I made it a game.. like Penguin said.. ..I'd see if I could make it 10minutes. Then another 10 minutes. If I was really nutty crazy, I'd promise myself a cigarette the next day. Of course, I usually wouldn't want it by then and my quit meter had rolled to another day and sure didn't want to go back. lol! There is some debate about bargaining and delaying but this worked for me. Everyone is different. That's why they say most quitters quit a few times before really quitting. You find what works for YOU. Quitting is way more the mental than the physical, that is why this site is so great.
I'd quit so many times with tears and tears of grief for my "old friend" that I'd never see again. Boo hoo. This quit, I was more lenient with myself and gave myself a choice every time I had a crave. The nos won out and I was in control of the quit. Choosing to say no every time creates a winner mentality. Yes, I went into very a sad time because I lost the way things used to be. Looking back, it wasn't about losing an old friend, it was more like moving to a new neighborhood and everything is a little unfamiliar / off kilter and you haven't found the dry cleaners you like. Or maybe like a new job and it's just not a routine yet. A quitter before me (Tom) wrote a post called "Grieve if you must but put it behind you". That was so true ( I think I read it about 50 times). Expect the sadness that many have gone through. Know that it's a phase on the path to healing and being a quitter!
But the very, very best thing I ever did for myself was finding this site. I'd quit on my own and was trying to stop myself from relapsing. Found this site. Totally random! Found the best quitting help on the web.. like a family of friends who helped this stranger to stay on track. Post and come back whenever you are feel like it.
For work tomorrow, make a plan. You know exactly when you would go for a smoke break so plan something else. Walk around the block. Snowing? Walk to the vending machine. lol! Oh, I just remembered.. red licorice and Dum Dum lollipops.. haha, I was so addicted to red licorice I started to crave those after a meal. omg.
Crazy times, crazy coping. Do whatever works!
Rambling on but your post really reminded me of me. Spend as much time as you can carve out for yourself reading all the old posts here. Go deep. Save the ones you like. Sooooo much to learn here. It's a journey and there is a rainbow at the end.
Boy, does that ever sound sappy but it's true.
Stay close and all the best..
HP
My Milage:My Quit Date: 4/1/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 642
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 15,408
Amount Saved: $3,697.92
Life Gained:Days: 85
Hrs: 0
Mins: 18
Seconds: 12