Lil, sorry I wasn't there when you needed some support, but you got a real buddy in Breather and I know he stepped up the mark for you.
Hon, all I can say is probably at your age I would be just the same- and quite honestly at your age I didnt want to stop, its only as I have hit the dreaded 50's (a critical time for women I believe) that the repercussions of a lifetime smoking began to hit home and hit home fast. Only then..................did I wish I had done it earlier or better still- never done it at all.
Lil, if this only makes you smile then listen to this- since I packed in I realise that EVERYONE smokes but me and Paul!! in cars outside shops in the street you name it,tv movies- smokers are everywhere- when we smoked- NO ONE SEEMED TO SMOKE WE WERE THE LAST ONES (or so it seemed)!!
You've done 40 days which is amazing- I would be the last one to patronise you, I really do think this is a blip and you needed to vent and thats what this site is for. I just know for me personally- I could not do those surreal first couple of weeks again, when my every waking hour was consumed with bizarreness- I could not and would not do that again, I know myself too well. If I throw the towel in then its for good sadly, and that is why I must take it day by day and hope that nothing ever makes the decision for me.
let us know how you're doing wont you?
My Milage:My Quit Date: 5/10/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 201
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 5,025
Amount Saved: $3,015.00
Life Gained:Days: 23
Hrs: 14
Mins: 7
Seconds: 8