Hey all, I joined recently and haven't had much time to post - I been fighting a battle with myself over IBS (which is probably just me giving myself the symptoms through anxiety).
Basically, I can never explain myself, I feel like I am the only one. I will try my hardest to explain a few things about how I feel.
Firstly, I have obsessive compulsive disorder which seems to have gotten worse and worse each year of my life (tugging on my front door to make sure its locked, checking the cooker with my eyes, then feeling it to make sure im not being deceived by my eyes, e.t.c). Also taps, pulling on them and breaking the washers on them cos I think I haven't turned them off properly, have to look at them and feel for water dripping too.
I also have hyperchondria, I panic about my health a lot - worrying that I have cancer and I can even give myself pains and symptoms of all kinds of stuff because of my worrying. As I mentioned, I currently have all the symptoms of IBS, I think I may not even have it - just giving myself the problems... Can stress and Anxiety cause flatulence, releasing mucous?
Please don't forget to answer that question for me :)
I cannot concentrate on things, If I get a problem (e.g. my bowels) then I cannot take my mind off it, AT ALL, not by doing anything - I get worked up about it more and more, it's like I am fighting with my mind.
I have a very good imagination when I close my eyes, but if I see something bad - then it floods my mind, and I manage to see something nicer, but the bad thing keeps powering over what I want to imagine...
Here is an example.. If I try to imagine seeing something like two amazing dragons fighting or something detailed by closing my eyes then I can, but I can't control what they do - they will just be stuck on a loop and I try to fight it but it keeps doing what it wants - Sorry if this is confusing.
If I try imagining myself walking down a nice road, then the whole image will start spinning out of control (not dizziness though) and then I can't control it or stop it doing it.
I am sorry to make this post so long, I just wanted to try to describe some of my problems, I really think I am the only one like this!