Terrific Post Nonic
I know what you�re saying we have to be strong and beat this as you say people who never smoked manage without a crutch and just get on with it and please God down the road that can be true for all of us. BUT unfortunaly at the moment my addiction is such it had the capability of reducing me to tears this morning. Let me explain:
Before giving up I had a routine for a long number of years each morning on the way to work I would stop at the local shop get the morning paper a cup of coffee and sit in the car have my coffee and a cigarette, I changed my routine for obvious reasons. I miss my routine in more ways than one I don�t seem to be able to get to the things I am supposed to I am not keeping up and just as Jan said, it�s hard to cope with disorientation and emotional withdrawal so I gave in to myself this morning I just wanted to feel normal, and not have to worry about what I should or should not do, so I went into the local shop got the paper and coffee and I was within a hairs breath of buying a packet of cigarettes and smoking one. Don�t ask me what stopped me I just know it took all I had not to give in but I didn�t I went back to the car and cried my eyes out. I want to be normal again I want to stop living in my thoughts, being lost all the time being a mental mess and I might add I have resorted to talking to myself can you believe it I am actually talking to myself out loud in public, what next. I really don�t know where this is taking me I only hope I can keep my Quit for my own sake. Thank you all for listening .
Have a great smoke free weekend
LILLYPUT
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]1/2/2008
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 44
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,320
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] �481.80
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 6 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 14 [B]Seconds:[/B] 25