Hi Lisa, I also feel like I haven't lived much, I often feel like I've been cheated out of my teens and early 20's as I didn't really do all the things that people of that age usually do due to having panic disorder.
I also believe that this life is a test. I think that the way you live your life, in this life determines which 'level' you go to in your next life. I guess I have similar beliefs to you or to the traditional Christian beliefs, I just express them differently. Where you say you believe that we have angels all around us, I believe that there are spirits all around us guiding us. Same general belief just expressed a different way.
Thanks for your response, its always good to hear the views and beliefs of others, particularly when we suffer from this horrible disorder, sometimes someone will say something here that just helps to carry me through another day. I can't help but think that this must all be for a reason - we must be experiencing PD for a reason, just not sure what it is!
Take Care, Taz. :)