I made a mistake in naming names. I always forget people. I was thinking the other day about Lolly. She kicked my behind, when I tried my first serious attempt and then only made it 4 days. It was such a loving kick though. I was able to quit again for 7 months.
There were so many people that came to my aid when I was dumped. Golferman explained to me that I had been used- it wasn't fair, but that was what had happened. UFO had humor. Bovary was there and Rusty , oh, so many others. I wish I hadn't had the mods delete the thread. After a few days, I felt it had served it's purpose. I made the mistake of not copying it.
(For those that know me, I was dumped in 2005, when my fiance realized that I was serious about quitting. It was the one condition of marriage. He said that he wouldn't marry someone who would die before him. He gave me what some would think to be an impossible task- quitting smoking. All of us here, know that it is not impossible. I stayed quit after he dumped me for another 6 months- for a total of 7 months)
Why I went back to smoking and lost a 7 month quit? I fooled myself or the nicodemon fooled me. In November, I had one puff at a party and I gagged real hard. The next day, some part of me said, "You know if you hadn't inhaled so deeply, you could have kept smoking that cigarette." When Christmas time came, I utilized this technique to "enjoy" :mad: two cigs at a party. Then a rahter bleak January rolled into February.
Sometime in February, I made the conscious decision to start smoking again. I remember the moment too. I was at work and thought to myself, "Self, when you get home, you can smoke and drink until your heart's content." [b]Then I told myself the biggest lie of them all. "You can always quit smoking again."[/b]
It's not like riding a bike- the quitting part. Let me tell you. I know I am preaching to the choir. I decided in April that I was going to quit again. It took 2 full months to gather enough steam to maintain a quit- unlike going back to smoking.
My motto now is too always remember the first days and weeks. Cause Hell week is a *****, is a *****, no matter how many times, you have gone through it before. Heck week and blah week aren't any picnics either.
[color=Purple]Thank you Auntie and Storm
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